Let me just say that I hate my voice. Yeah I am in ST but it still hard. I am 21 years old ( Age wise) but I can not say my own name its a struggle and no I can not do phonics. Despite all of this I understand everything, ok so not chemistry but not everyone understands it, what that means is that I do not have an intellectual disability. Its like an invisible brick wall , yeah I know walls can not be invisible but its a metaphor with a fantasy twist . I know what I want but when I try to get it I hit my head on a brick wall. Totally not fun:( .
This makes ordering food really hard sometimes people can understand my speech and either make the food or help me tell the person . Well the past few days at my college dinning hall the chiefs have not been understanding me that well. Earlier today I had speech and we came up with writing the word down on the notes feature of my I-Phone . Well , as I went back to the dinning room after speech for a evening class , I wrote down Cheese burger and garlic fries as a back up plain. There was a severe there lets call them A. It was fairly busy so they called another person to help B. Well I have worked with A before but she was having a hard time understanding me I'd say she understands about 70% of what I say; however, I had never met B before. B ends up helping me. Between the two of them they understand that I want a Cheeseburger and B starts one on the grill, I tried to tell them I wanted American Cheese but neither one understands me. So I write it on my phone and show B he calls A over and A helps him I look over and sure enough there is some American cheese on the grill. I look down and hear a smirk. I think that someone made fun of my speech the worst part is A is the manager.
Told my parents and they did not seem to see why I was so mad. I am mad because I think they made fun of my speech. I am mad because I want to be able to say what I want and have people understand the first time. I am mad because sometimes I am so Frigen tired of repeating and trying to be understood. I am mad because I hate when people think that I am too dumb to notice if they laugh. Good think book girl and Soccer man understand.
