It still hurts

 My   Dog lights up  my world

 
    Let  me start off by saying that I had a great fourth of  july  week.   I   went  to a firework  show  at  the  local  elementary school and  had a  great  time.    During the fireworks   i  saw  some people   from high school and said  hi   and  instead of turning around they  left me.   Actually  everyone   left me  and there was  no  room to sit  because spots  were  taken.   I     end up sitting next to people from  my high school  and  afterwords  there was a  party at  the  girl's house  but   guess  who was not invited.  I    keep on  plugging  away and walked home.      Despite  this I  had a great time  overall  because  hay   I  have not had  great friends  for  most of my life  so  I  guess   one  to say that  I am  used to  it  by now.    

 It still  hurts

  On the  fourth of July   we had a  party at Sacramento and  I saw  my cousin  who is  two  years  old . She is the same one  that I wrote  a  poem  for   before she was  born.    My  cousin  lets  call  her   K  told  princess  that  she could baby sit.   I  offered to  babysit  because  hay  I  like   kids and   she is  a cutie  pie.     K says  no    but  i could  baby sit with  D  our  other cousin.  D says  no way.    K  says the  chaperone   needs a  chaperon      I  shut  down  then  people asked me  whats  wrong.  I say  nothing because of  course  I    am   known as  AZ the     one who  runis things    for everyone  involved and  I am   trying  to change that .  I  told my mom what was  bothering me  but she  does not  understand  because  She  asked my sister   to  watch over me  if she  moved to sacramento.     HELLO ?     I  can   take  care of my self.     Yeah  I can not  cook  or do  my hair  but   that is what  hats are for  and     I can  microwave stuff.  I want to be independent  how  do  you think  I feel when  I hear these   things  terrible.         I am not  a kid  anymore  I am almost  21.   Man  its  so  hard to be  me.      I feel  like a round  peg  going into a  square hole.  I have  a hard time fitting  in  with peers, disabled and   average, and    I   am  still  a  "Kid".   Yet      I   still  smile and  try to  be  happy because  after all   these  things  are  commonplace  for me.

                     It  still hurts

 Heading back home ater the fourth of  July

 

Independence Day 2012

Happy 4th 

Disclaimer America still is not free for everyone blacks disabled immigrants but it has come a long way since 1776 so I guess its ok to celebrate.  I went  to see fireworks  last night and    i am  going  to   my  Aunts  house  today.    pictures  will  fallow  soon


  Ps   yesterday was    my Dad's  birthday    Happy  b day  dad 

Parents with Cerebral Palsy - Documentary

  

 This gives me so much hope for the  future  I want to be a mother 

Able to go to college episode three :Basketball- one of my favoite sports

   

            I know  what you are thinking  how  does this  relate to college   answer  it is   weekend edition.  You know all work and no play......... well I do not  know the rest  but   here it is.   My number is    number  11.  I  really love  playing in this  tourment.  In my area there are two gyms for basketball  but  one  practice  site  for all other sports  so  for me this  means that  I  played against all  my  friends    who are my team mates in  other sports  like  track  and soccer.  I  also  have  my  HMB   hoop buds  one of them  also  goes to my school.  In the fall  more  people from  my team  will go to  my college which will make  for an interesting time ( hint  not all  of them are my  friends)  

I  know second question  

  What's  that on your  arm?

    Thanks  I thought u  never ask.

 All the colors.   I have a white and black  one   I want the orange  one 

 The  white thing on my  arm  is  called a Sniffle  Buddy.  Now  some  people  with CP, me include ,  have the  tendency to   drool.    Now when  I was younger I  drooled a  lot   I mean  I  could have  filled a  cup with  salvia  from my mouth and   I am  not talking about  when I was a  baby i am  talking about    school aged.   Now that I am older   I  have  good  days, where  no   drool  comes  and  I have  bad days  when   drool    comes  out.  In  high school  I   began  to  spit on  people when  I  talked  but I did not drool   oh  the  wonders  of  CP.

  Now one  of  my pet peeves  is   seeing a school age kid   wearing  a  bib.  I  mean  hello  bib   are for babies   not  for  older kids.    I  do not care what kind  of bib you may get     it still  looks  babyish  and   it will make  fitting  in  with other kids  harder then  it  already  is. A great solution to this is to use a bandana  or  a  Sniffle  Buddy,

    A  sniffle  buddy      resembles a bracelet,   It is  made out of bamboo  and it works.  I love  my sniffle buddy  it helps me  control the drool also   if i  forget to  grab a napkin during it mealtimes   helps   me as  well.  Sniffle  Buddies also  are for allergies  and  sports which means that  it is not specifically designed  for  people with disabilities; however    it works.   It is also green because instead of  throwing  napkins away    you  just put it into the  wash so that is  what i am  wearing on my arm.

    

  

  On a different  note  today I  begin  summer school  so this  might be the last Able to  go to college  video  for a while.

Happy Fathers Day

 My dad and I  grand canyon summer 2005

  Dear dad


    I  want u to know that even  when we do not  agree on stuff    in the end u are my Dad and I  love u.


 love  AZ

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America its time to listen

  As many  of  you  long time readers  know, in my youth I was a Toy Story  fan.     I  have seen the movie  so many times that I know   all the lines and    when I can not sleep on  occasion I play the  first couple of scenes in  my head.  


   In this  movie  there is a claw  at the  Arcade   and   when  Buzz Lighter goes  into the claw  game    and asks for the boss  the   Aliens  say 


                  " The claw is our  master  He   decides   who will  go  and who will stay."  


   Woody   says  " This  is  ludicrous"  
 Woody  has  always  been  my  favorite character and    as a adult  I agree  with him.




      I am not  just  quoting  Toy story  for fun there is a  meaning.  Back  in  2006 around  Christmas time NPR  released a  story about  Misty Cargill    a  women who  was  25 years old  had a boyfriend and  worked at a job and loved bowling.      She also  needed a Kidney  transplant.     So  she needed to be  placed  in   a  metaphorical "claw  game.     Only this  time the claw  game  is  made up of many  people, doctors who deiced that she would be  better   stay  put with  the  kidney she  had because  she  had   an Intellectual disability.        On Sunday  Misty  died   at 31 years old. 31  when my parents were that  age they  were  just starting on their careers and  raising a family.    


  The  report in 2006   says that   she  did not  get denied based on discrimination.  I say that  is   not true.      Six  years  later  another girl with  ID was   denied to  have a   transplant surgery because    of ID.

 America  needs to  listen  to its disabled  citizens 

        I am  tired of this.    I am  tired  of  people  saying that  disabled people  are  not  worth the same  type of medical  help as  our  able body  counterparts. I am  saddened that there  is a possibility that     one day  society will have   wiped out   people  like me.  I can not imagine   the day  when   their is  parental  testing  for Cerebral  Palsy  and  that  parents are forced  to terminate.  It could  happened. It already  happens  for  conditions  like Down Syndrome.   People are trying to find  the cause of  Autism and   I  do not have to  be a genius to  figure out what is  next.  Soon    there will be a test for that as well. Society needs to stop trying to find cures  for disabilities.  Instead we need to have more conversations   about  inclusion  and  respect.   That will not happened  around here  because where I live kids with  Intellectual disabilities are segregated in separate  classrooms.    or when they are mainstream they have  bad teachers  who are invested  in    making sure inclusion fails.      This  is not in the south   in  the   1940's  this  is   2012   where we have a black president but  the  problems  still  happened.  Wake  up  America     lets  start a conversation with people with  disabilities   about  how we want to shape  our  future.   Let  it be broadcast   on TV  and online.   Lets  start  talking  about what needs to be done  by  listening to the people that  live with  the disability every day .  Let's  talk  now   before  it's  to  late.




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Able to go to college Episode two : Top of the hill

  So  guys sorry   about the long wait but at  long  last I have a new Episode for you  guys.     This  episode  is an important  one because   it  shows  a myth that i had  about  college when I was a senior.  

 This is what I  thought   awaited me after high school  I was so wrong 

 High school was  tons  of fun  for me I  mean  we had  ralles  Senior  Activity Day  among other things.  At home  I had  video games and   tv and stuff to  keep  me entertained.

 One of   the big myths that I had  was that   once you  graduate high school  you  do not have any  fun.

 Oh  how  wrong  I was.

  Two  year later I  know that  is  not the case.  As  you can  see  there was  rock climbing on the  college campus  for a day.   Last fall I  went  on the  rock  wall  but   on that day I did not go on the rock wall. As far as videogames  go I  still  play them   like  I did  in high school.   Although  I must admit I do not have as much time to play because in college,  I am  in  a general education  program,  I have tons of homework and  stuff to do.     Its  only the  third  week  of school  and I am  having this much fun   who knows  what  fun awaits  me the  rest of the semester.

 




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