Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Enjoying the sun on a sunday part two

A family of five go to mount tam ;however only two go up a father and the only disabled teen in the brunch, his daughter. ( The Irony)

top of mount tam dad and Me June 6 2010
After the play on the mountain my dad wanted to take us to the top of mount tam. He has been trying to do this forever but this was the first day it was good weather. Book gal and Princess had a different idea though.



I wanted to go to the top but little did I know there were 2 hikes . One going around the mountain and another going to the building. My whole family went around and I learned that Princess is afraid of stuff too( heights and wild animals). So my mom waited with her and book gal in the van while I went to the top with my dad.


The view was amazing up there I am taking a break climbing the mountain. I had to hold my dad's hand all of the time.





I am standing outside of a fire station on the top . There used to be a train that took you to the summit and they would have dances on the top.


The fact I went to the top is a significant because I am almost done much done with OCD it has been the hardest climb in my life. I wrote the flowing poem a year after getting OCD.

Going up the Mountain
by AZ Chapman
I was going up a mountain
yeah
oh I was going up a mountain
I was going up a mountain
going up so fast
I had friends all me
I thought that it would last
with new friends to make and sports to play
life was good
to good to last
The year of ninth grade
in the spring semester
things stared to become a pester
first the map then no sleep
then my family found out I had OCD
I am going down the mouton
i am falling fast
I just want to return to the past
the friends I tough I could trust
just left me in the dust

I know i can climb the mountain again
and I have started
but some days are harder then others you know
and now that spring semester is here once more
I am afraid that I will fall
further down the mountain
I hope that I can climb the mountain
and get back on top
if I got back up again I would shout hoary
I missed you summit
and i hope that I can
and hang out up top the mountain
and never fall
And then people like Ms P would be amazed
because I have beaten down a hard wall

was going up the mountain
yeah
it will take hard work
but I am determined to get back on top




Two and a half years later after the poem was written with OCD almost complete and a high school graduate

I am thankful for how far I have came over the past three years in regards to OCD, even though it is not over yet there is a light at the end of the tunnel.







Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Enjoying the sun on a Sunday part one

On Sunday my family got up early and drove to Marin to go to a mountain play on mount tam. We were going to see Guys and Dolls which ed started one of the people who works with my mom. The weather was beautiful( even though as we were driving though San Fransisco I thought it would be cold due to the clouds. Even in the heat it was a nice outing. Now here are some pictures

    Save the  souls was    repeated  throught the day.  I think  this   was good since it was after all a Sunday
 


   Is it me or  dose the  Monkey look  like   Curious  Geroge 



book  gal and me   waiting   for the show to start  my mom  made us sandwhichs  and we  had a picnic before the show  began.



 Watching the show  you  can  see  princess  in the   top  left Conner she will be a junior  next year   man    it seemed  like  yesterday  it was the  summer before my  Junior   year of  high school.



The lady in   pink was a sign langue  interpeter. I  sat down  by her  a lttel  bit during the seconed  half.
                       

I had a  fun  time   and   I wish we would have  been to these    starting  when I was younger then    this  year  being my  first time at 18.  ( they  have been  doing these  for almost 100  years  now0).  Be sure to stop  by   tomorrow   for   part  two.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

I passed AP history ,but aged out of speech


I have cerebral palsy which is mild ;however, it still noticeable in one way when I open my mouth to say something. Not saying anything for me isn't a option because i love to talk and i am funny which means strangers will always wonder what is wrong with me or think that i have low intelligence which is soo not the case. AS Deb pointed out her speaking has no consistency with intelligence

This has happened a lot of times during my course of my life. I remember adults talking to me or asking my parents what I say it far more what happens. It happened recently at a restaurant with some family friends. I order something off the adult menu(which makes sense considering my age) . I had an adult drink but come meal time I got a thing I wanted from the kids menu. Now most people would not be bothered by this but looking back I wonder if the waitress gave me something from the kids menu because she thought I was not a adult or that I would not know the difference because I had a intellectual disability I wonder.

I did pass Advanced placement united states history and it is true. I passed my test with a three. with high school ending I aged out of free speech therapy and there are still things I could work on. Mr.T stutters a little bit but he is still smart and wise and the administrates trust him to teach AP and he is a great teacher. I may talk unclearly but that dose not mean I am dumb.


pic is from http://www.buzzle.com/img/articleImages/295742-3812-20.jpg

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Ready or not here I come


no not hide and seek but graduation i graduated from high school for the first and last time. I had a party at my house with my family and got my video games back so even though it sucks that high school is over I am glad my video games are back in my possessions

Saturday, May 22, 2010

I do not get by

Remeber the Beatles song I get by with a little help from my friends well for me I do not get by with help because I do not feel that I have friends to lean on. I do have the kid from my b ball team who is my best friend but he is only a eighth grader. I have typical friends but they are not scared of transiton so it is hard to go to them for help. Plus I have the suspiction that i tag along with them instead of being true friends with them. I have some socal skills but as a senior in high school (with five days left) I can not work in groups I still act like a child. i am no where near ready and hanging out with Mr T is out of the picture as well so how am I going to survive.

At Special Olympics there are kids who could realte but DD has single handly made it so I do not have acess to them. The girls are disabled and whats more they have fromed a click and make my life a liveing hell. I got into a fight with them saying that they belong in Slytheren( from harry potter) and they belong to the vampire hunters( They realy enjoy twilight) The coach then repermand me for makeing this wrose because I also cussed at them ( was tempted to use the R word but I did not ) So I do not know how I am going to deal with the transition from high school. If anyone has a time machine can you please let me use it to go back to the begging of senior year instead of where i am now

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Randome in the moment quotes from AZ


Mom :Ouch AZ you hurt =me what do you say

AZ; I love you ( I know she was looking for sorry)

Scenario two
AZ; I am not ready

mom I am ready I am ready

AZ: I am ready I am ready to tune you out.

will post more soon

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Happy Mothers day




we had a fun day today we went to a restaurant worked on gardening and saw Iron Man 2


. One more thing from Ellen and max


1. Because we never thought that “doing it all” would mean doing this much. But we do it all, and then some.
2. Because we’ve discovered patience we never knew we had.
3. Because we are willing to do something 10 times, 100 times, 1,000 times if that’s what it takes for our kids to learn something new.
4. Because we have heard doctors tell us the worst, and we've refused to believe them. TAKE THAT, nay-saying doctors of the world.
5. Because we have bad days and breakdowns and bawl-fests, and then we pick ourselves up and keep right on going.
6. Because we gracefully handle the stares, the comments, the rude remarks. Well, mostly gracefully.
7. Because we manage to get ourselves together and get out the door looking pretty damn good. Heck, we even make sweatpants look good.
8. Because we are strong. Man, are we strong. Who knew we could be this strong?
9. Because we aren’t just moms, wives, cooks, cleaners, chauffeurs, women who work. We are moms, wives, cooks, cleaners, chauffeurs, women who work, physical therapists, speech therapists, occupational therapists, teachers, researchers, nurses, coaches, and cheerleaders. Whew.
10. Because we work overtime every single day.
11. Because we also worry overtime, but we work it through. Or we eat chocolate or Pirate's Booty or gourmet cheese, which aren't reimbursable by insurance as mental-health necessities but should be.
12. Because we are more selfless than other moms. Our kids need us more.
13. Because we give our kids with special needs endless love, and then we still have so much love left for our other kids, our husbands, our family. And our hairstylist, of course.
14. Because we inspire one another in this crazy blogosphere every single day.
15. Because we understand our kids better than anyone else—even if they can’t talk, even if they can’t gesture, even if they can't look us in the eye. We know. We just know.
16. Because we never stop pushing for our kids.
17. Because we never stop hoping for them, either.
18. Because just when it seems like things are going OK, they're suddenly not OK, but we deal. Somehow, we always deal, even when it seems like our heads or hearts might explode.
19. Because when we look at our kids we just see great kids. Not "kids with cerebral palsy/autism/Down syndrome/developmental delays/whatever label."
20. Because, well, you tell me.

az answer. Because You are always involved in IEP and advocating for us kids