No I am not sick or tiered I have lost my inner drive to do well. On Thursday was my IEP and guess what guess what I get do in fall summer 2010 live in a group home and work at Safeway because I don't have the skills to live on my own and interact with people. Mr W said this at my meeting he talked to my parents and told them to sign me up for services for job training and a group home.
I have been in mainstreamed since kindergarten. Has it been easy ? No. Do I have social skills problems? Yes. I am smart yes . So much for independence in 09. I can't believe he said these things instead of giving me hope. He saw me the day before and he did not even brother to tell me so I could be papered or better yet sent me out of the room I feel like giving up. It is Saturday night I can not bring myself to do my homework. i mean why try if I can not do it. I talked to LG and she agreed with him . She is not my friend anymore . I wish i had someone my age to support my hopes and dreams. MY dad says let it go. I can not let it go it hurts it not what i planed when I was little. I wanted to be a mom. Now looks like I will be a child forever. My only regret is that people tricked me when i was little. yeah I am down for the count