Battle of the bay

Today I went to the cal Stanford women's basketball game. The game was called battle of the bay because they are both located in the SF bay area. My family met up with a family friend at the Maples pavillonwho have four girls who are younger then princess and one who is my brother's age. (I think the girl has a crush on laid back athlete) I was rooting for Stanford because my dad went there for med school and my siblings and I have been to a lot of camps there. Standford beat Cal 79-58. I thought I saw ms A but I never got close enough to tell.

After the game we went to Star bucks with the family we went to the game with I had a fun day even if the youngest beat me in war.

2009

first off I want to say Happy new year things around here have been hard ocd/anixety wise but enough with that today is the last day of 2009 which means one last chance for me to look back on this year. lets get started

January 2009:Obama became president I went to my local special olympics youth summit

February 2009: I made home made cookies for a Spanish project and found out I had a secret admire at school

March 2009: learned about CP awareness day

April 2009: won honorable mention for Dare to dream big poem pics and video coming soon

May 2009 : Took the US AP history test , Book gal turned 16, Princess finished her first year of high school while I finished my Junior year

June 2009 : I went to golf camp and a mid evil party, Mom and my two sisters went to Washington DC

July 2009: Saw fireworks from the top of dad's car , was a CIT at the JCC, went to Bike Camp and learned how to ride a two wheeler and made a ton of friends, Mom and my sisters went to Las Vegas.

August 2009: went to the monetary bay aquarium, Princess turned 16 Went with C and R to the SF Zoo right before starting senior year

September 2009 I turned 17 18

Octorber 2009:helped out at the special olympics young athlete day and met J Mac and coach Jim Johnson ( this has to be my favorite memory of 2009)

November 2009: My grandma came to visit from texas and we went to the California Academy of Science

December 2009: Celebrated christmas and played way to much wii

now for the annual New years resolutions as well


first reviewing from 2009 list




1More independent. Make my own lunch for school clean my room stay organize and do laundry once a week Happy Mom somewhat compleated

2 Stop talking to myself / yeah it's a bad habit that i need to break I do not want to be doing this in collage ( This is probably the hardest one on the list ) need to work on this

3Keep room somewhat organized not much has changed

4 Mange my homework time better ( You might not see post around here that much )

5 Learn how to drive got my permit and am taking driving lessons if my ocd settles out. last lesson was in November



Ok so 2.5./5 F aww man



new years resolutions for 2010
1 More independent ( this includes OCD progress)
2 respect others better
4 finnish editing my books and keep writing more Nick Adventure stories
5 post at least 15 times per month

man it has been a while

hi guys it has been a while. School has been hard and ocd has come back making the last few weeks a challenge. I am going to try to post some more since i am off of school for a few weeks. i am planning to do a year in review next week and montage for Zoe's gotcha day

( Christmas eve) Stick a around but in the mean time post a comment.

Words do hurt part two

Tuesday December 1 2009 time second period in a high school class room Mr_______ (a special ed teacher) and the students of the class including AZ.

AZ: Aww Mr.___ why did u have to put in 0 for this chapter .( I had to work three days to finish a worksheet)I now had 25 and my mom yelled at me.

Mr.___: You earned it AZ you say you will do it and never do

the other students are inside the classroom now. Mr.___ is about to give a lecture

Mr.___: Who says we need so more troops all we have to do is send AZ and the Iraqis will heProxy-Connection: keep-alive
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she is coming and run away,

Mr. ____ is a special Education teacher who made fun of me. it is nor funny to me. Mr.B knows I do not have lots of friends and by caking a joke he is making a emphasis on this fact and that I should be avoided . When I was in third grade i remember being called Ronzilla and people running away from me. Ir was coined by a boy who made fun of my speech kids would call it and run away from me on the playground. Did Mr________ know this on Tuesday when he told the joke no but he still should not have done it should he?

stay posted for how it turns out I tried to talk to Mr.____ but could not. For anyone who dose know me in real life I am really interested in what you have to say.

Aww thats better

   I am  all caught up on my  make up stuff  ( well  only need  Personal fince  but  it will  work  it self out I hope  so  hopping to  get  back  in the swing of things  soon

Camp Camp

wow I am so sorry guys for not posting anything in a while. I have been a CIT at the PJCC camp. That's right I have been helping out with typical kids. ( going into kindergarten at the PJCC . It is so fun. I am learning all about the Jewish religion. It is so cool. I know I have not been around but I plan to get back. tomorrow I have a golf torment so I will post pictures of that on here. I am going to try to post pics of me at camp so stay toon.

Another Poem for the web

(Me in Disneyland next to my beloved childhood movie icon the aliens summer 2006 Princess is next to me )

Do not stereotype me


Just because I’m disabled
I’m not a science fair project so please do not stare.
Ask a question?
I do not mind
And have the time
To spare.
I’m not trying to talk weir d so do not take it as such
And I am not slow hate and I it when people think I am.


Just because I’m disable
I don’t enjoy teasing or bullying so think before you speak
I’m not a product of an accident that should not have been here
I don’t just wonder around aimlessly
And I don’t know any one with a disability who dose.

Just because I’m disabled
I’m not a baby even if I wish I were on hard days
I don’t have a sickness or illness
And I don’t plan to be a burden to my society my whole life.
In fact I want to enrich my community

Just because I’m disabled
Don’t me that you are more perfect then me
Smarter then me

School parternship program

Today I got to represent my high school in the first ever special Olympics youth summit for the bay area. I was the only Representative from my high school . The day started out with leadership and what it takes to be a great leader. ( friendly nice lovable were some I remember) . We listened to Soren speech about the dread r word had a scavenger hunt and I got to share about what it's like to have the best of both word: having a disability and being smart, but at the same time being so isolated from my peers at lunch time.

In the end each school got together to make a leadership plain for spreding disability awareness around the school. ( the students were special and typical high school and middle collage students) I was the only one from my high school but after some encouragement came up with some idea. The best one is a disability week ( or day) for the entire student body along with helping at a young athlete day in may.
I had so much fun and met so Meany new people. ( and saw some some b ball friends from HMB). I am exacted to get more people at my high school aware about disability awareness at my high school. I am hoping that students ( and staff )see that we ( disabled individuals) have more ABILITIES then disabilities . to learn more about the program visit this
website http://www.specialolympics.org/project_unify.aspx and poke around it is new and improved stick around to here how it goes at my high school.


got pics from http://www.sonc.org/images/getinvolved/SchoolsNC_be-a-fan.jpg http://www.laddc.org/poster-contest/2005/3-tram-le.jpg

Down for the count

No I am not  sick or tiered  I  have lost my inner drive to do well. On Thursday was my IEP and guess what guess  what   I get do   in   fall summer   2010  live in a group home and  work  at Safeway because  I don't have the skills  to live on my own and  interact with people.   Mr  W   said this at my meeting    he   talked to my parents  and  told them  to sign me  up for  services for  job training   and a group  home. 

 I have been  in  mainstreamed since kindergarten. Has it been easy ? No.   Do I  have  social skills    problems? Yes.  I am  smart  yes .  So much  for   independence in  09.  I can't  believe he said  these things instead of  giving me hope.  He saw me the day before and  he did not even brother to tell me   so I could be  papered   or   better yet sent me  out of the room I  feel   like    giving up.  It is Saturday night I can not  bring myself to do my homework.   i mean  why   try  if  I can not  do it.  I talked to LG    and she agreed  with  him . She is not my  friend anymore .  I  wish  i had someone   my age to   support my hopes and  dreams. MY dad says let it go.   I can  not let it go  it hurts  it not what i planed when I was little. I wanted to be a mom. Now  looks like  I will be   a   child  forever.  My only regret   is that  people tricked  me  when  i was  little.  yeah   I am down for the count

Favorite final flashback

  Hi guys just a  mid week up date  I am  in  finals     which end on friday .   I was  going to  do WW  but since it is  almost too late for that I am going to post my faverite final memory  which  thanks too dad  never  deleting his  email  is still intact so      Enjoy  this memory that  have  only done  once  Bold  name  are  changed  for privact

  December 4 2006 15 years old and a freshmen (ninth  grader  in  high school)

I am writing to congratulate AZ on an exceptional Spanish oral interview. She spoke accurately, appropriately and with a good accent. She understood all of my questions, and literally did not make ANY mistakes in speaking! This is both unusual and impressive- not many students  earn a 100% score on the oral interview, and she certainly earned it! She should be proud of herself for her focus, hard work and strong intellect. As usual, she is kind, a great participator, helper (to me and classmates) and listener in Spanish class. !Felicitaciones  AZ!

 hopefully I will ace  more finals  in the near future 

After the bell rings

Now I am a disabled advocate in the making but I am also a board teenager after school. The reason being that I try ed out for the varsity basketball team and of course got cut. My Spanish teacher is the soccer coach but I can not play on her team because I have CP.

Acting is also out the question. My English teacher is not sure how the class will do in the understanding in me without questions on the overhead. I talk wired because I have CP see a pattern.

it not just school aged kids ( K-12) with CP NlD OCD . It is kids with down syndrome autism and other disabilities. It is hard to find Inclusive after school activist es offered in the schools. To make matter worse as you get older most community programs max out . As much as i enjoy the Special Olympics the program is not very inclusive and you are mixed with audits . disabled but adults nonetheless. When I was little I was able to play AYS O with kids my age and I was in a singing group and I had Judo that was with kids my own age. Even through ayso has a team in my age group I can not physically can not keep up so my dad has yet to sign me up. This is not bad because Golf at school keeps me pretty busy but it is still hard to watch my sisters have fun without playing,

I am takinge the anger and sadness that I have had over this and am writing anther book. It is a sequel to the excerpt that I posted Here. The idea is to create a inclusive after school sports and homework along with enrichment and advocacy for disabled and typical students from kindergarten till the twelfth grade. If only I had this I would be a happy camper after school.

If you have any Stories of heard of after school inclusive activities in your town.please post a comment with your story

ggot the pic from http://www.countrywhispers.com/school/old_school_bell_ringing_hg_clr.gif

I feel betrayed

    Hi guys  I  would love to have typed that  my turning over a new  leaf  in  school this  year is going great  but  it is not

 Let me start off  by saying Monday through  Thursday    started off  great.  I was playing golf  and  writing two  essays   ( that is 11 grade  for you)   seems  good  right wrong.

 There  is  a new kid at school that is  my grade. He is  in my chemistry class  and  I thought  he make a great friend . Well I learned that he  is popular and   thus      the kids  proubly told  him to forget about me.

 Well I diced to tell him about my social stadus in  a  blunt  way  yesterday and he  said he still  wanted to be my friend. All went well  until the end of science  class. As I was packing up   I heard  my teacher say  "They  tolerate her   and help  her   but she is a great kid."      He only said this  because   I was listening  in  on stuff they were saying    behind my back,

 I  can't  believe what happened   might I remind you that this is the same teacher that I had  last year   who was nice  and helped me  out last year. He  diced to   tell the new kid (who he knew I was  trying to make  friends  with) to  Tolerate me  instead of  Aceapt  me,  He  made  a big stink  earlier  that he was going to treat me  like any other  student  but then to  say   others tolerates me   come  on  he really     wait the  post dosen't  end there  when I asked him  what he meant   he  his  kid felt  unconformable  to  me  because  he  never met a  girl like me  before,  what      When I confronted him     he said  the teacher  brought me  up  and the  teacher won't tell me the whole stroy .My mom emailed  him when I literary came home in tears 

 Ms  A is not back this year  and the Autism  class is not at my school anymore   thus I  have no where   to  go and no one to hang out with. Please keep  my family in  mind  over the weekend  because  my ocd is acting  up  from  my math  class.  I have not had a day as bad  as that one  since night  grade  just before   i got OCD 

I DON'T HAVE A PROBLEM

On Monday I finished Bay cities driving school and was so exacted because I had a blue paper that shows I completed all my days and ready to get a permit. I ran out to the car and got embarrassed by one of Baby's friends who I did not know was in the car. We drooped her off and headed home. On the way home I said that I was sorry to baby to which she said . "It's okay I just tell them You have a problem.'"

I said I don't have a problem she then said the prefix dis means taken away. It dose but I do not have a problem. I tried telling baby that problem has the connotation of needing to be fixed.

Why dose this matter I will tell you all why. My disabilities make me AZ the kid that so many people care about. I am a writer I am a good student and yeah I have disabilities big deal. I wouldn't want to be normal I'd be different person with a completely different personalty.


The world see people with disabilities as a problems. here is why. People use the word retard with out caring. (Go see Jeff blog for more info on this in the media) People abort kids with down syndrome even though they have a lot to give the world . That is why I started blogging and will continue to do so to show people that I have more abilities than disabilities

Can you feel the hate tonight Left out Addiotion

(Baby [right]and Mid-sis[left] modeling swimsuits as toddlers)

This is something I wanted to post about for a long time. It is about what is between me and baby. It all started when we were at my aunt's house in Sacramento My cousin H was visiting us . She is my age but hangs out with baby and mid-sis. Well The girls wanted to go see Indiana Jones and I wanted to go with sounds simple right .. oh wait I am disabled. My uncle went to talk to my mom and Baby said it was to scary. My cousin said She dose not want to go if I am coming along and baby did nothing to stick up for me. In the end I stayed at my aunts and uncles house and came downstairs after my mom resumed me that She dose not hate me it just that she is a teen and dose not understand but she doesn't know is that I felt the hate of my family .

Last weekend when C was here I took her around the block piggyback style and someone asked if we were sister and I said no. But I wounder what would life be like if baby had a bigger age gap between us. Would she boss me around ? Would she play video games with me more often would she let me help her I wounder. I was looking at some old video from the Christmas 2000 earlier this evening. In the movie I am opening a pesent and baby says Wow It's a racing set. I wish I would have known that baby when I was at least Ten and she was still five.Instead of eight and fivewhich was are ages back then

Today she was trying to teach me volleyball but she was not patient i was trying realy hard and she was being rude by texting her friends and yelling at me when I was trying so hard to do it right . The only reason why want to know about volleyball is so that all of us can play volleyball out in the font instead of mid-sis and baby.

I love the baby so much and I know she loves me but I want her to me proud of me and want me around instead of pretending I was not related to her. I am not even allowed to vist my old middle school because of her but that anther story The ancer to the post w below will be posted on Monday so you can still figure it out.